PR•METHEUS

it was all a dream (quick read)

2/16/12, 3:22 AM.

I just woke up from what seems to be a nap to remember.

I love my family and I love my family. Not too many know much about ‘em with it being a touchy topic that has its ups and downs. What family doesn’t? I’m never comfortable about striking conversation when it comes to answering: How’re things at home? Disease, distress, daddy departures, etc., etc., etc. (aka I can’t really think of any other word.) Mum is sick with a she-won’t-tell-me, my uncle is currently fighting off cancer, and most of my family is diagnosed with type II diabetes. As much as I respect my family expecting me to be the future M.D., I don’t see myself living up to those expectations anytime soon. I have, however, made a claim by keeping to my word– to be the source of unity in the family and to make them proud in all things I do. I’m looking at this yellow livestrong band that I wear and it has taken up a much more meaningful purpose than to just sport a Nike silicon accessory. I look at photos of my grandparents of whom my mother misses dearly and feel the pain she endures as the days go by. I feel the strands of hair that are so rooted into my scalp and think of my uncle battling for his life and tell myself, ‘to hell with my hair. I’ll fight with him on the frontline.’ Speaking of which, I’ve been wanting to get a new cut for a very long time now since Bieber references are always addressed towards me. I look at the scale and mirror and see how I’m finally [pursuing] the best shape of my life by living a healthy lifestyle. Can I be the living inspiration for the Santos family tree by simply doing the things I do on the daily? Humbly and unknowingly, I believe I can. A writer that I look up to a lot simply stated that the goal isn’t to live forever, the goal is to create something that will. –Chuck Palahniuk, Diary. And that is the vision I had awoken from prior to this post. I dreamt of my grandchildren talking about stories of Daddy Ian, their hero, and what he did to make the surname Santos proud. Yeah, I’mma be THAT grandpa.

Not many can wake up from a dream and be triggered to do such actions. So, Daddy Ave, you won’t be fighting alone. Daniel, Christian, Jarren, Kate– I’ll be your courage to grow. My ate’s, I’ll be the man in your life. Mom, I’ll be your world. To the rest of my family from all parts of the world, though miles apart my prayers keep you near. And Grandpa ‘Zo, overlooking from up above, I’ll carry the torch you set off and lead the way.

At this point, I’m making this dream a reality.